Blog Entries by Donny Pauling

If you've been around any length of time you know who I am.  I'm the guy who used to produce porn for 9 years, and whose life was changed after a four year interaction with XXXChurch in which they served as Jesus in skin, changing my perception of Christians.  After I became one, XXXChurch continued being Jesus in so many ways.  One of those...

Dear Mr. Mayer,

Do you mind if I call you John?  I know we’ve never met, it’s just that you seem like the type who’d rather be called “John” than “Mr. Mayer”.  We’re not friends, but I really dig your music.  In fact, I listened to your latest album, Battle Studies, twice on my flight back to California from the East Coast yesterday.  Right...

Roschel Wynn modeled for me when she was 19 years old. Yesterday I interviewed her for this podcast (which is also going to be released on the XXXChurch podcast as well as Jason Harper's Triad Podcast). She wanted to share her story, her experiences.

Beginning with a shoot that incorporated both photos and video content, her first job for us...

For some reason, I've been really feeling compelled to contact one of the girls who modeled for me. I finally tracked her down and had a conversation with her via Yahoo Instant Messenger a few days ago. Amongst other things, I asked if she'd mind allowing me to interview her for this column. I promised to keep her anonymous.

Today I...

Dawn Writes:

I am conducting a doctoral dissertation on problematic sexual behavior in women and risk factors. Volunteers are needed to fill out a questionnaire (all multiple-choice and check-off lists) that will take approximately 20 minutes. Please email me at dmopitz@msn.com or call at 631-987-9807 for more information. I can mail the...

From the boyfriend of a former model. He became her boyfriend after she had worked for me. This model keeps in touch with me from time to time.

I've been doing a bit of writing. Not one to be mysterious, I'll flat out tell you what I'm up to: I've begun the process of writing a book. Today I was browsing through the blog I used to write while producing porn. It still exists, I just have it password protected. While browsing I stumbled across a blog entry from January 5th, 2006. ...

If you've heard my story, you've undoubtedly heard me speak about the anger, bitterness and hatred I once harbored towards Christians.  It was pretty bad, let me tell ya.  For many years, I did all I could to cause as much grief as possible to as many Christians as would talk to me.   I loved to rub in their faces the fact that I...

Hey Donny,

I have a HUGE problem. I'm getting married in a month, and my fiancé FOUND MY PICTURES on the internet. He is beside himself. He is hurt and shocked and being that we are supposed to tie the knot in less than a month, I'm freakin suicidal!!! Freakin sick over this....throwing up, cannot sleep at all...I never thought in a...

Wendy, my ex-wife, and I are pretty good friends. We were high school sweethearts. We dated 4 years and were married 6 years. During 3 of those married years I produced porn behind her back: first on a part time basis, later full time.

After our divorce, Wendy and I maintained a unique relationship. Our son deserved parents who got...