downward spiral

i'm 45.i grew up in the 70s sexual rev. saved in the baptist ch. at 11 yrs old. it was about that time that i bought some playboy cards from a kid at school-the first porn exp. i had and then threwout my teen yrs i was exposed to playboy,tv,etc. more and more. i just seemed to find it everywhere friends,dumpster behind workplace,college library. i bought a penthouse at 19-the only porn i can remember buying as an adult. i didnt have to buy it ,it was every where like the devil made sure it crossed my path. i saw hardcore as a 20, adult but it revolted me so i stuck w/ soft porn addiction. never married- i attended church still till i was 24 and then after i had several horrible relationships w/ girls and the 1987 era church sex scandals i turned my back on god full of anger. i had asked god at about 13 yrs old to protect virginity till i was married and he has. for 10 yrs though i partied while in college and porn/alcohol addiction cont. then i gave my life back to god in 98' and got back in church. then the devil laid his trap. some family members i hung out w/ had hardcore porn all over theis house and were letting their children from 7 yrs. to 15 watch videos and mags. the house was full of demons and i found the porn but didnt give into it. but , i had a friend who i was trying to be a christian influenc on a few yrs later who had a stash of hardcore mags mostly barely legal stuff. also 2 different men i rented from i found mags and vids they had and i became addicted but i prayed for god to get me out of their and he did. then in 2006 i moved in w/ a christian friend and found out he was looking at internet porn for yrs. and i had not up to that point. but the environment was defiled and i began to find all this porn online. i have cried and cried out and sent prayer requests and asked for prayer at churches but it only seems to grow worse. i have asked god to purify my mind & heart of lust for females. so i hope joining with you will help.