Never ment it

I have watched porn for over half my life and have been saved almost all of it. I began watching porn with my pre-teen friends as a dare and joke. It quickly engulfed my life. It was all i could think of. I got back into church around three years after i first started watching porn. I knew it was wrong but it didn't matter. I would mess up and end up repenting over and over but i did not mean it. The deviil (i know the spelling is wrong i just don't respect it) would tell me he will forgive you go ahead do it again. Yes God did and will forgive me put it takes me out of God's presence. Not to mention the punishment i and my family have received from my action. I now have a two year old son and a new born daughter. i do not want my son fighting the same demons I have nor do i want my little girl to think that is how to get love. In the last few years i haven't struggled as much do to my wonderful and supportive wife. But i still have messed up and always know in the back of my head God forgive what is to worry. Well i had that same mind set today and messed up. And i claim to day i mean it "God forgive me, i know i don't deserve it at all but please, PLEASE forgive me. I have fallen short of your gorly. Help me to be the man you entended for me to be. Give me the strenght to be that man. forgive me Lord. Break this bond that sataan has on me. Restore me, wash me, blot out my sins Lord. I am sorry and I mean it. Thank you Lord THANK YOU LORD!!"

Thank you xxx church for giving me inspiration to claim my sins and confess whole heartedly

Matt

hede wrote on June 30th 08 at 07:22PM

Good thing you stopped watching porn, because you have kids now, you wouldn't want them to come in and see you watching porn. But about your son, he will watch porn and that is completely normal. Otherwise, how will he know what to do after he gets married? It's all about not becoming addictive.

josh thompson wrote on July 1st 08 at 03:41AM

hede, you are wrong. it is not normal for Matt's son to watch porn. its common for it to happen, but its not normal in God's standards. also, i think that's the one of the wonders of abstaining from sex or any sexual thing like porn- you find out how to have sex. i think it will increase my intimacy with my wife on my wedding day. so, matt, don't listen to hede. keep your son from porn and masturbation. teach him purity in this culture. he'll need it. God bless! Proverbs 3:5-6