Secret Addiction
It seems that most of the people here have issues with strong pornography. I don't like so called porn. I do however struggle greatly with adult material and websites that display scenes from R-rated films and also webcams. It is so easy to try to justify these things as "non-porn", but the effect is the same! I am so ashamed that I cannot stop the cycle. I go days sometimes without it, but I get alone and so easily am able to get on, and no one is the wiser. I just wish I could stop. I want to just disconnect the internet and get rid of any other temptation. Its so hard though. I just want to feel free. I want forgiveness and I want to change, to stop, to not feel like i need it. Its like cigarettes, it just feels like a de-stressor. Please pray for me, I know it hurts my marriage and it makes me a social recluse. I know the guilt and sin make me an ineffective christian. Pray that God may give me strength and self-control.
