Taking a Step to Come Clean

Hello, thank you for this opportunity, even as anonymous as it is, to confess my deep, life-destroying struggle with sexual sin. I was a very faithful christian and even was a missionary when sexual sin came back to haunt me. I had struggled with porn in high school and college. Now, living overseas (not as a missionary), I have gone to massage parlors and would even go there now if it was possible to go without being seen. This eventually gave way to masturbation which I just started doing 2 weeks ago and I'm absolutely addicted to it. I'm completely addicted and it's completely ruining my life. If you read this, please pray that I would talk to my pastor. Thank you.