Where to start?
I have been looking at porn since I found my dad's collection during puberty. I was also exposed at the age of 7 or 8 to another boy who lived on my street. He would suggest we get naked and masturbate. I had similar experiences with girls which I initiated. Later in high school I lost my virginity at 18 with a girl. I have struggled with masturbation so much so that in college It would effect my sexual experiences with women I dated. I remember thinking at one point I must be gay. I struggled with that thought but I now know that is not true and I just struggle with same sex attraction. When masturbating I often do it in the mirror. This is very humiliating for me to admit and I hesitate to post this but I need help and advice.
I am married now but cannot seem to shake the masturbation habit. I frequently masturbate sometimes several times daily after going a week without falling. I cannot remember going for more than a week ever. I really need help and not sure how to stop.
As I see it, it is important to find out what drives you to masturbation habit even when you are married, why sex with your wife doesn't satisfy you enough. Understanding of the roots, of the motives of your sinful behaviour would help to find the solution.
If you want, you may talk to me (my e-mail is beversus at gmail.com) or find a Christian counsellor that you may talk to about your troubles.
And if your wife doesn't know that, tell her. Even if it would hurt both of you, bring the truth, dark truth into the light so that you may be free of hiding that.
And may the Lord be with you & be your strength & purity.
