A way around...
To all who read, but most importantly-Father God
I used to struggle with porn...in fact I called myself a porn addict. I still admit to having struggled with it, it has damaged many relationships, especially with my spouse. In 2001 I realized I was falling deeper and deeper into this pit. I confessed it to the woman who is now my wife, to my family and to several people who held me accountable. I was free!! My wife and I got married in 2004 and things were awesome. I began working at a church that was already ready to close their doors. Honestly, I was a young minister and thought I could go in and turn around years of apathy. As I realized the church was going nowhere, I began to fall into a depression and fell back into my addiction. That was almost 4 years ago now. There have been times of victory and times of utter failure. Right now I have just failed. I have installed X3 watch software on every computer I have around me, work and home. So how did it happen? I found it on my cell phone...I found it there. I say 'found' because I went looking for it.
I need help...I need accountability again. Every friend I have is within the church to too far away to keep me consistently accountable. I graduate with a masters in ministry this year. I feel unworthy to lead.
This is not you who can decide whether you are worthy or not, it if God who is doing that! And remember that He is always looking on you through Christ Jesus and His purifying Cross! Remember, that He is just, but His mercy rejoices against judgment.
If you want, feel free to contact me on beversus at gmail . com, I hope I can be helpful to you.
God bless you, dear brother!
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