need to come clean
I was once "the guy in the pew srtuggling with porn." For many years I have battled an incredible addiction to pornoghraphy, which had caused me to begin experimenting in other areas of sexual deviancy. The feelings of guilt, shame, fear, hopelessness, etc. were intense. There was a point in my life where I felt as though I could not break free from this hideous monster that had such a powerful grip on me. That was my breaking point, when I hit rock bottom. For me it was meeting a Christian woman who loved me enough to help me confront my addiction and lay it down at the foot of the cross. My porn addiction is no longer my idol. Jesus has set me free. I do face temptation from time to time and I have given into that temptation. However, the more I focus on Christ and spend time in God's word, the more victorious I become over temptation as it springs up.
I am now a church planter and lead pastor of an inner-city church. I know there are men who are struggling and want out. God has given me an intense, constant burden for reaching out to such men. I have made attempts to do so in the past, but nothing significant has come of it. I had started and was overseeing an online forum that was developing a lot of activity. Although this forum was generating a lot of activity, I eventually lost interest in it and gave someone else the online opportunity. I would like to be able to help men in person, one-on-one, small groups, etc.
Maybe being more involved with X3 will encourage me to take that bold step of faith.
Dave
davejacob92@yahoo.com
