s.o.s i am addicted
I grew up in a Christian family, i actually attended Bible School and finished a degree in evangelism and discipleship, presently serving in one of the provinces here in the Philippines. It all started when I already had enough knowledge that I could please my sexual desires. Maybe I was only 7. my brother introduced me to masturbation. as i further in age, this temptation took root and I find it really hard to overcome. to make it more worse, i was introduced to pornography and I became very addicted to it that every time I look at porn materials I feel the need to satisfy my urge. every time I finish satisfying my sexual desires I really feel the guilt and a huge chasm away from God. every time i minister to people i feel like i am a hypocrite never walking what i am talking. i always feel ineffective and my desire to serve God is very much affected by it. most of the time i am not able to have my quiet time thinking and feeling that i will never learn, that i will do it again. i always question myself why when i am already desperate to put an end on this i find myself sucked in it.
