Struggling with porn and masturbating

Hi I've been called to the ministry. I've never told anyone but it started from being sexually molested when i was about 6. My eyes were open to sexual sins at a young age and I battle with it for all my life. I know God is forgiving, and he continues to open dors and bless me but I don't want to keep on abusing his forgiveness. I struggle with it. At times it sem like I am doing good but then I fall right back into it. Now I am being called to do youth ministries and I need to be set free. I guess I needed to let this out. As i am writing this tear down my face but I can feel a burden being lifted for coming forth. I need prayer and an accountablity partner. So I can continue to do what God is caling me to do. As well keep my marriage safe. I thx the Lord that it has not filtered into my relationship with my wife like it could have been. I still want to remain committed to her with no sexuals sin or adultery of the heart. Thx you for reading this and keeping me in prayer for a breakthrough.

Jason wrote on July 28th 08 at 08:39AM

I am a worship minister myself. You are very brave to be honest with yourself and God in your struggle. I have struggled with the same weaknesses. I have not been molested but I have experimented as a child. I have gotten past many sex addicitons. My wife knows and has been battle tested. She has been the biggest example of divine forgiveness in my life. I love her and thank God for her everyday.

You are right, we shouldn't take for granted God's forgiving nature. I am taking the necessary steps to be free and stay free. I will pray for you, brother. I commend you for coming forward this way.