Can't do it alone

I was exposed to pornography at an early age, probably around the now recognized statistic of exposure. I can't say that it was much of a problem at the time, because I didn't have any access to the Internet and only my friend's parents had a so called stash to explore. However, I purchased my own PC when I started my first year of college and things got a lot worse. Since the Internet makes it so easy to access porn and do it privately, I sought after it when I needed a 'fix'.

Fast-forward to today and I see my newly married wife rush out the door in tears when I confirm to her the reality of a bad dream that she had that very night. I don't consider myself to be addicted in an extreme sense, but even an occasional binge or satisfaction of curiosity is enough for me to realize that any further pursuit of vanity in my life will ultimately destroy the world around me. And the mere fact that my wife had a dream about it was enough for me to realize that God wants me pure and he wants me to devote myself to Him. He doesn't want me to hide any longer this secret of shame but to expose it and open myself up for the healing of a wound I have had since I was a kid.

I always thought I was better than this. That I could best this affliction of pain, but after years of trying in my own strength I have nothing to show for it, nothing to confirm my ambition. I have sinned against a holy God, the God that I claim to worship and I now confess and renounce my sin before Him and others and seek to change.