confused
Hi,
I have been married for 5 yrs this month. Unfortunatly, my husband is addicted to porn. I have done everything I know to do. I am currently "taking a break" in my christian life (I know that sounds horrible) because when I "get right with God" I want it to be the real thing. None of the fake religious junk I have had all my life. Anyways back to the subject. I am miserable with his addiction. It is not hidden anymore from me and if I ask questions about it he will tell me. But he has no desire to stop. And I'm pregnant with our 3rd child and I dont' want to be another statistic of a divorce. I'm tired of other Christians telling me thats my only option. I want to keep my marriage intaked but want to know how to deal with his addiction. He has said in the past that if he thought it was possible to stop (forever) he would but I think he sees nothing but failure if he even trys. I totally understand how difficult it is for him. He wants nothing to do with counsling and thats stuff. I try not to take the addiction personally but it still hurts if he would rather do that then have sex with me. I really dont' know what to do. Again, I want to keep my marriage I just dont' want to be mad and him all the time either. Please help.
Confused Wife
First; I am so sorry that you find yourself having to deal with this. This was not how it was supposed to be. You are beautiful, you are a faithful wife, a devoted mother and your husband is a very blessed man to have you for a wife.
I cannot tell you what to do, but I can tell what is working for me. A daily surrender to God and consistently praying to God for him to intervene in my husband's life. Taking a break from your walk with God is the worst thing (in my opinion) that you could possibly do. You and I both know that with Him you can all do things- so without him you just can't do it. You need His grace and His mercy and His leading.
Please consider Partners for Purity (www.partnersforpurity.com) it is a ministry for women who have been affected by the sexual sin of someone they love. You will find a lot of support and encouragement there.
God bless you dear one.
