Enough is enough

Hi, My name is Chris, and I was a porn addict. This is my story.

I don't blame my sins on others, they were mine to bear. I chose the lesser part. Some days i would be able to bear the burden alone and it would feel great, but the strength would only last a few days before i would slip and fall again. I was in an abusive relationship with my step dad, which led to low self esteem. I felt that no one cared about me, i didnt matter, I felt that i was worthless. No one cared about me, or so i thought. I thought I was one of the few that God abandoned, i felt that my mother only wanted me as a trophy son and didnt really care about my happiness. Drugs were not an option, so what did i turn to. Porn. For a few moments i felt good about my self, and then the burden of guilt and sin would take over, digging my grave deeper and deeper. I felt that no one would ever love me, so when a girl showed up that wanted me, not in the good way, i gave in. And that only made the issues worse. After time passed, we broke apart, and i was left with my addiction. The next girl to walk into my life saved me. She taught me that i was worth something more, and she taught me that God loved me, and she is teaching me to respect my self more than my sin.

Brothers, my encouragement to you is this. Use your pride as a tool with the Savior to over come the addictions that you may be suffering from. You are worth more than you know. You are destined to reign with God in His kingdom, and you are greater than the world. The only objective of the advesary is to make you worse than you are. You are already saved through the atoning blood of our redeemer, he can not take you, but he can make you miserable. You are better than evil, and i promise you, that with love, hope, determination, and reliance on the Savior you can beat your addiction. If you find your self struggeling with the magazine, website, or what ever, SCREAM for help. Your spouse will hear you, and your Lord will hear you. His hand is outstretched continually towards you, and He will rescue you if you ask.

It took me a year to overcome the addiction. I am not sober, but i am dry, and i pray continually to be sober of this poison. I pray for all of you and my heart pours out with love towards you. Be ever humble.

"Blessed are the meek, for theirs is the kingdom of God."