Ruined Marriage
I have never been so glad to see a cause such as this. Porn has had a very negative effect in my life. From my very first relationship to my failed marriage. When i was 18 i fell in love for the first time with a 23 yr old man. I was heart broken a yr into our relationship to find him hiding very young Japanese girl porn. I felt sick and lost all trust. That relationship lasted for 2 more yrs with infidelity running ramped. I married three yrs later to a man i thought was different. But he wasn't. His obsession with porn made me feel so worthless i lost all self esteem. he wanted what he saw in the porn he watched and most things those girls do is not natural and not possible. It absolutely makes a fantasy world that men want more than reality. whether it is stupid or not, that is what happens. He would get angry when i couldn't perform like the videos and eventually stopped having sex with me. I became starved for his affection. I began to let him watch porn while we were being intimate . I would be crying and sick during this but he was so into the porn he never noticed. Eventually the porn and I was not enough for him so he went outside of our marriage looking for his fantasy. This happens everyday in millions of women's lives. I am now divorced and a single mother. I am damaged emotionally and mentally by porn. I feel it played a big part in the demise of my marriage, and if women who say they support porn were ever true to themselves or put in the spot i was in, they would admit that nothing about porn makes them feel good. Especially when the person u love would rather have that then you. i hate porn so much. As a mother of a son, all I want to do is shield my innocent child from this perversion,. Sure sex is a natural part of life, but i want him to experience something natural and real, because truthfully men who become obsessed with porn are just as miserable as the women who have been offended and hurt by it. Men are just as miserable because they spend their life moving from partner to partner looking for something that isn't real and their lust is never satisfied. I don't want that type of life for my child. Although i want this porn crazed world to change i fear it wont. But i whole heartedly support you and your efforts. I now pray that I can be patient and wait for the man God has for me. Thank you so much. I praise God for you and keep you in my prayers.
please pray for me that i will remain free as well.
Your Brother in Christ
