a big mistake

i have been struggling with sexual sin for a long time that i cant even remember when it really started but it started somewhere during maybe 6th grade. I finally received Christ as lord at 15 but i have still been struggling with this sin. My problem is looking at porn and mastrubating sometimes for hours. I have noticed in the past three years, slowly but surely the Lord is working in me and it has gotten better. This year i have actually managed to go weeks and even a month twice without looking at porn or masturbating. but i recentely made a big mistake and i after about a month went back at it again like a ravenous binge and something happened that could get me into trouble. I really dont know what to do. please pray for me that i will not just be set free but that my relationship with Christ will grow and that i can cling to him despite the fact that i am sinning right now. It has destroyed me, it has hurt my family probably even one of the reasons why we moved across the united states but they dont really know. They know that i have a problem, i have told them but its hard because they are my family and even though they love the lord also its akward. i dont have anyone to turn to, i miss God. I miss him and i know i hurt him. I love Him and i just want to walk with him like Enoch did. I just want to gaze at his beauty like David. It kills me that i dont got a pure heart and then how can i go up his holy hill? I know he loves me but can i forgive myself and seek him again? I am tired of this and i really miss Him. I miss talking with him and reading His word. My eyes are welling up as i write this.

Matt wrote on June 30th 08 at 03:56PM

Hey I feel your pain. Countless other guys like you and me feel the pain. You have to forgive yourself and break out of the pity cycle. Forgive yourself and allow God's grace to work through you- bringing you back to the Light. Don't sit there in darkness like i have for so many weeks. Get up and get back on your feet. Keep trying bro. If you need someone to turn to you can e-mail me too at firewarrior259@aol
-peace love and prosperity everyone!

hede wrote on June 30th 08 at 07:26PM

The Lord will forgive you, my friend; for he is the one who forgives us mortals' sins.

Jacob wrote on July 5th 08 at 01:49PM

Try www.settingcaptivesfree.com. God bless!