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I can't let go
Here I am once again. Sitting at the computer after I have screwed up again. I desperately need to stop. I disconnect myself from God so that I can indulge in sin without guilt. I hate this. I want God. I want Him. But there is this part of me that wont let go. Its tearing me apart and I am afraid of where I am going to end up like this. I need help. I don't know where to go. I don't know how to let go. It makes me sick. I want to live for God. I want Him. Why can't I let go?
matt wrote on July 21st 08 at 04:57PM
you can't let go because the lust still has a hand on you. here's a story that may help. one day a boy went to the priest to learn to pray. the priest told him to come the next 3 days and that he would teach the boy to pray. the boy showed up late on 2 of the days and never came on the 3rd day. on the fourth day the boy came late again. the priest took the boy to a nearby stream and told the boy to hold his head under the water as long as he possibly could. after a few moments the boy pulled his head out of the water, gasping for air, his face blue. the priest said to the boy- "when you want to pray as much as you want to breathe, then come to me and i'll teach you". the moral of that story is that yes, God is there and willing to teach you, but you first have got to want it
