I'm ashamed of this fetish and this habit

I don't understand why I get aroused in the way I do. I was never into porn, per se. I could get off without having to look at a girl naked. But then the things that aroused evolved into unnatural things.
The first time I masturbated was probably when I was seven or eight. I haven't stopped since. It tears me up. The main reason I need to confess, besides the fact that I am frequently betraying God and breaking my promises with Him, is that I feel sick. Sick at who I am becoming. Sick at the things that arouse me. I feel like I'm stalling here. I have a strange and disgusting fetish. It's hard for me to get aroused sometimes unless I use it. I don't even want to type it in.
I get turned on by hypnosis. When I see a woman hypnotized or hypnotizing someone else I get aroused. I hate it. It's so sick. It tears me from God. I feel like I'm being hollowed out. But I can't stop. I masturbate almost every night. I think I'd rather die than continue.
I have a great relationship with a girl right now and she's so sweet and I want to stop this so that I can be pure for her. She's a huge incentive to stop, but I just can''t seem to do it. All the while I look at myself as a pervert because of this fetish. It's not the only thing that turns me on, but it's the fastest way to do it. I can still feel natural arousal. But I feel like if this continues I won't always be able to.
I need help now.
This can't keep happening.

Luke wrote on August 14th 08 at 01:18AM

I myself have been a man drunk in a world of his own fetish. I have gone places in my addiction that I never thought I would ever go. Remember my brother that you are not alone. There are many men in the Church that struggle with this.
Your honesty is a good thing. In means you want
to come to the light. Read 1John 1:5-10.
Jesus Christ is not a timid savior. He comes with power to call us His own. He does not look at the lust in the world, the lust in your and my heart, and say "if only that dark fetish wasn't there then I could really make use of that man". No, he comes to slay our idols, the bigger the better.
Christ is the fetish slayer. He loves to overcome giant sins in our life to prove his Righteous power.
I myself used to pay for hookers, Phone sex and have devoured hundreds of hours of hard porn. I am now a married man walking in the chaste freedom of our Lord. (I honestly thought I would die a filthy porn addcit, overdosing on my own fetishes) If the Son sets you free you shall be free indeed. Take heart man and trust in Christ. He is able. Luke.