I never would have thought that it would hurt so badly.

Wow.

In all my life, I have never experienced anything as damaging and as hurtfull as pornography. Somehow I didn't even realize that it was wrong at first. I don't know how. But by the time I realized it, I was hooked
I hate porn. I don't know why I do it, I don't enjoy it- in fact, I usually get sick while I it. But I can't stop. Or at least I haven't been able to so far. I've not yet told my parents, although I know I need to. I know they would be a great help. But they've always been so proud of me... I know I've let them down badly in doing this, and that if they know, they'll never really be able to trust me like they did before.
Pornography alienates me from God like nothing before, and I know I could be so much farther in my walk with Him if not for this. Pornography is destroying my life. How am I going to explain this to my future girlfriends? My spouse? I need help.

I really would appreciate any prayer I can get, and will definitly be giving it as well for all who ask. We're all in this together.

God bless you all.

Laura wrote on July 28th 08 at 08:21PM

Dude I know how you feel about telling future girlfriends... or in my case boyfriends. I told one guy that i was really serious about and he flipped out and now we arent even talking at all. But now all i can think about is... is this how its going to be everytime... you mean im goingt to have to tell someone else? Thesad thing was i had stopped before i even started talking to this guy.

I know you will be able to over come this.