Lust and my weakness

Hi, my name is Jacob, I am eighteen and I first got hooked on lustful images when I was a little kid. It started with National Geographic and trying to find pictures of naked women that were occationally published inside.
Then I remember going to a bookstore one day and looking at a biology book aimed at kids and inside was a drawing of a man and a woman having sex. At first I thought it was one of the most disgusting things I had ever seen. My parents are strong Christians but they never brought up the 'sex' issue, I didn't even know about the miracle of how I was created. But The pictures also had an attraction to me that ensnared me. I would also began to read books that had sexual situations in them until I began to move up the chain and look at photography books and the nude shots in them and watching the sex scenes on movies. It wasn't until yesterday that I actually looked up porn on my computer. I never thought it would get that bad.
Today I have been devouring your website, watching the video testimonies, I am encouraged by them and I hope with, God's help, I will have the strength to win the day.
I ask that someone pray for me to have the strength to tell somebody I trust, what has been going on in my life and for the strength to defeat the temptation when I am weakest (which I have found to be the day after I feel the best).
Thank you so much for your ministry it has been a major blessing to me and I know your message will help others. God bless you all!

hede wrote on June 30th 08 at 07:17PM

I must congratulate you because of not looking at porn until your 18. No one will know if you lied about your age on internet so you must be really pure or really stupid. I think you are pure rather than stupid and I congratulate you again for being porn-free.

Zach wrote on July 1st 08 at 01:54AM

My name is Zach and I have struggled with porn and masturbation for the past 7 years or so. Currently I have a good hold on the issue with all the strength God gives me and a really good accountability partner; however, I really wish I would have found this website earlier like you did. Because I read all these stories and I see all the hurt and the healing, and I know that I am not alone. But I will pray that God will give you the strength to tell someone and fight this temptation before it gets a hold on you. If you can stop it now, you will save yourself from a lot of future grief and self-loathing. Just read all these confessions and know that you are at the position we all wish we could go back to and change.
God Bless.