
My Hard Heart
I use to feel guilty after I masturbated, but not anymore. I was never really taught that it was a bad thing, but deep down I knew that it was wrong. I gave it up for a while (about 8 months, with very very few setbacks) but now I'm falling over and over again. I justify it to myself in so many ways, but my real problem is that I no longer feel like I've done anything bad. I still understand and realize that it is a destructive problem, but after I've done it I don't feel like I've sinned. I justify it by pretending I'm with my future wife, and I just blur out the details and pretend it isn't outside of marriage. I know I could stop if I could break down my heart, but I've refused to allow the Holy Spirit to show me the err of my ways.





