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RUNNING OUT OF HOPE
well this is kind of hard for me to do and I know I'm not reveling myself to anyone but here is my confession.
I have struggled with porn and masturbation on and off for a few years now. There has been times when I was on for at least a year and then was able to get off for about a year. But right now I have been on for about 2-3 years. I feel hopeless right now. I have gone to camps where I have learned of Gods grace, I have spent several nights crying out to God, I have been right next to God several times in the past couple years but I still cannot get over this addiction. I feel like there is nothing I can do, because I have done it all. I have tried all there is to try. I read my bible and then an hour later I'm wanking it. I praise God with my full heart and then go home and look at porn. I hate it and want to change but it's just so hard.
Can someone please help me out, have a comment or suggestion or a situation similar to that. Please help, thank you.
sam wrote on August 14th 08 at 03:45PM
hi,
I understand how you feel. So I pray over you right now and anyone else dealing with this and declare freedom from every addiction in the name of Jesus. You have been set free when Jesus died for you on the cross 2,000 years ago. You are no longer bound by these things. Jesus not only took up your sins, he took all your infirmities, addictions, hurts, and problems. Know that the devil has no authority over you unless you give him authority. Rather, you have authority because a) you're seated in heavenly places b) Jesus has been given ALL authority, which means the devil has NONE! c) everything is under the feet of the Christ, and since we are the body, everything is under us also. You are a beloved child of God. And no matter how much you might feel like you are failing, God still loves you.
I know one way that might help is just to go and seek God recklessly. Read the Word, pray (without ceasing), worship, visit Christian websites (like this one, or ibethel.org, Jesusculture.org), read Christian books. Keep the worship music on whenever and wherever you can. Just fill yourself with God and the things of God. Once we see God's beauty, what the world has to offer us is ugly. Pursuit the Lord like never before. Then keep pursuing Him. Ask God to consume you. Ask for God to possess you and ask for grace. And x3 watch definitely helps.
I found this just a few days ago. Someone wrote down their dialogue with God, asking God to explain Song of Solomon to him. This is Jesus' reply:
"Love for Me will become a consuming fire in you. My love is not something you can trifle with or take lightly. If you say ‘yes’ to Me it will consume your whole life[18]. I will not awaken love in you until you give Me permission, but believe Me, when you do say ‘yes’ to Me things will never be the same again. You will never be able to go back to what was[19]. Once you have tasted the new wine of My love the old will never satisfy. Be warned, you will be ‘ruined’. Religion will not satisfy, the world will not satisfy, for when love is awakened in you it will cry out for Me. You will become love sick for Me and only I will satisfy. Do you want to be like this? Do you really want this? Do you want a passion, a consuming fire burning within you? Think carefully. No, do not think. If your heart, your soul, your spirit cries out ‘yes’ then say ‘yes’, and I will come and awaken love in you. But that is why I warn the daughters of Jerusalem not to awaken love until it pleases, for there will be no going back to that which was before."
A recent revelation I had is that God, the only one and true God, the God of the universe, came as a human to save me, a sinner, someone that did not deserve any of His love, grace, mercy, goodness, etc. And He washed me clean. He is SO loving and generous to give me His Son, but also the gifts, the Holy Spirit, and even authority, and eternal life. So the LEAST I can do is to obey and worship. Not that works will save me, but because it is out of our free will to love and obey Him.
I believe God will help you overcome, and only He can, and with God, all things are possible.
hope that helps a bit
God bless,
sam
(email me if you want samd_viper@yahoo.com, i would like to hear from you)
I understand how you feel. So I pray over you right now and anyone else dealing with this and declare freedom from every addiction in the name of Jesus. You have been set free when Jesus died for you on the cross 2,000 years ago. You are no longer bound by these things. Jesus not only took up your sins, he took all your infirmities, addictions, hurts, and problems. Know that the devil has no authority over you unless you give him authority. Rather, you have authority because a) you're seated in heavenly places b) Jesus has been given ALL authority, which means the devil has NONE! c) everything is under the feet of the Christ, and since we are the body, everything is under us also. You are a beloved child of God. And no matter how much you might feel like you are failing, God still loves you.
I know one way that might help is just to go and seek God recklessly. Read the Word, pray (without ceasing), worship, visit Christian websites (like this one, or ibethel.org, Jesusculture.org), read Christian books. Keep the worship music on whenever and wherever you can. Just fill yourself with God and the things of God. Once we see God's beauty, what the world has to offer us is ugly. Pursuit the Lord like never before. Then keep pursuing Him. Ask God to consume you. Ask for God to possess you and ask for grace. And x3 watch definitely helps.
I found this just a few days ago. Someone wrote down their dialogue with God, asking God to explain Song of Solomon to him. This is Jesus' reply:
"Love for Me will become a consuming fire in you. My love is not something you can trifle with or take lightly. If you say ‘yes’ to Me it will consume your whole life[18]. I will not awaken love in you until you give Me permission, but believe Me, when you do say ‘yes’ to Me things will never be the same again. You will never be able to go back to what was[19]. Once you have tasted the new wine of My love the old will never satisfy. Be warned, you will be ‘ruined’. Religion will not satisfy, the world will not satisfy, for when love is awakened in you it will cry out for Me. You will become love sick for Me and only I will satisfy. Do you want to be like this? Do you really want this? Do you want a passion, a consuming fire burning within you? Think carefully. No, do not think. If your heart, your soul, your spirit cries out ‘yes’ then say ‘yes’, and I will come and awaken love in you. But that is why I warn the daughters of Jerusalem not to awaken love until it pleases, for there will be no going back to that which was before."
A recent revelation I had is that God, the only one and true God, the God of the universe, came as a human to save me, a sinner, someone that did not deserve any of His love, grace, mercy, goodness, etc. And He washed me clean. He is SO loving and generous to give me His Son, but also the gifts, the Holy Spirit, and even authority, and eternal life. So the LEAST I can do is to obey and worship. Not that works will save me, but because it is out of our free will to love and obey Him.
I believe God will help you overcome, and only He can, and with God, all things are possible.
hope that helps a bit
God bless,
sam
(email me if you want samd_viper@yahoo.com, i would like to hear from you)
Scott wrote on August 19th 08 at 01:23AM
Dear Running,
I understand your frustration, as I have been there (and may still be, this has to be battled day by day). In your on going battle, don't forget how we are created. We are sexual creatures, and God designed the boundries of marriage to allow us to enjoy that gift. What porn has done to me (and I'm sure to you too) is rewired me to be aroused by those images, and therefore be caught up in a never ending spiral of looking at porn. Your body is becoming dependant on the chemical rush you get from looking at porn. It didn't happen overnight, and it won't be fixed overnight either. You have to take steps to protect yourself. Is there someone you can talk to? Get an accountability partner, either in person or on the internet if you have to.
I understand your frustration, as I have been there (and may still be, this has to be battled day by day). In your on going battle, don't forget how we are created. We are sexual creatures, and God designed the boundries of marriage to allow us to enjoy that gift. What porn has done to me (and I'm sure to you too) is rewired me to be aroused by those images, and therefore be caught up in a never ending spiral of looking at porn. Your body is becoming dependant on the chemical rush you get from looking at porn. It didn't happen overnight, and it won't be fixed overnight either. You have to take steps to protect yourself. Is there someone you can talk to? Get an accountability partner, either in person or on the internet if you have to.
