Struggle for Love

I've been addicted to masturbation for quite a while now, I guess a year or 3. From the start I tried to quit, but I always failed. I tried many, many things to stop. People praid for me, they still do I guess. I also pray, every day. I've had my ups and downs, but recently things got worse. I cheated on my girlfriend because lust took control over me, I slept with my co-worker. I was sexually disorientated, and started watching porn, again. Now I do not have a girlfriend anymore, I feel lonely and in need of (real) love, I watch porn and masturbate every single day. And I just can't quit. I pray for this every day, but nothing seems to change, I pray that God may lead the right girl on my path, but nothing happens. My addiction litterally distroyed my relationship. At the moment I still had a girlfriend, every time I was intimate with her, lust took over and I did wrong things with her. She always forgive me. It just keeps haunting me. Satan is playing with me and I just can't see God anywhere but in my friends. But my friends can't do anything either, can they? Porn and masturbation devestated my life.

avraham wrote on July 26th 08 at 02:59AM

Dont give up. God is still with you as long as you keep trying.

sirus wrote on July 26th 08 at 06:10PM

look up every thing the bible says about lust, the best way is to go to biblegateway.com and type in lust under new king james version and read it every night and every time u get a urge to masturbate or look at porn. before you read it pray to god saying God, I know I'm a sinner and i want to quit this, I am reading this out of faith taht you will take this desire away from me