Trying to stop falling

Hi. I am a 32 year old virgin (by choice) and I am struggling with porn and all the other mess that goes along with it. I have been saved for over 10 years but have struggled with porn on and off ... since I was introduced to it at the age of 12. God has given me the strength to control it. Lately, God has called me to a higher level in Him and I accepted the call. Since then Satan has been on my back with a vengeance. I find my urges are so strong ... I am having trouble putting a top back on the bottle. I find myself masturbating, looking at porn, participating in phone sex and most recently playing with the idea of meeting up with someone so that they can perform oral sex on me. Part of me knows this is a mistake and will only make it worse .... the other part of me wants the urges to stop and doesn't care.

Did God really mean for a 30 something single virgin not to have sex? I feel like I've come to the point that my urges can no longer be bottled up. I will continue to pray and fight. Pray for me. Thanks for reading.

Jon wrote on October 7th 08 at 10:03PM

hey wassup I know what you mean but keep reading your bible and giving us and up day and try installing a filter to help you know look

Angel wrote on October 7th 08 at 10:41PM

Thanks for the encouragement Jon.

AJ wrote on October 8th 08 at 01:03AM

hang in there your not alone. Im in the same postion as you. I also have a calling on my life that I have accepted and porn has been an issue I have delt with since I was 11yrs. old Im 35 now. I know how hard this is but put God first in all you do from the beginging to the end of your day.Replace your desires with His desires, replace your words with His words and just see where God will leads you..I'll be praying for you
AJ

Dave wrote on October 10th 08 at 07:21PM

Hey Man,

If you want to make Prov. 27:17 and Eccles 4:9-12 a regular part of your lifestyle, then I have a battle plan for you. You can email me at wheatonwr@hotmail.com if you're interested.

Erin wrote on October 14th 08 at 12:30PM

Same with me. I know God has called me to a higher calling than sitting on a pew every sunday morning, and Satan as well has been attacking me, and not just with matrubation, but in other areas as well. Its a total mess up. Every morning we have to make our hearts right with God. I know you can make it through this.