Why can't I stop?

My friend,

seek council and guidance from your church elders. Since, being a woman, i'd recommend female council. It is true when they say accountability is key, it is.

Furthermore the power of prayer, intense prayer that is, and diving into the Word is crucial. Yes, this is a sin, and yes, we all sin. Fight, and fight hard. Know that the accuser is using his folly to draw you to his ignorance.

What i do is kick up the theology to keep my mind poignant on the Kingdom of God. Remember satan will use an inch and create a mile out of it. Remind yourself to believe your beliefs and doubt your doubts. I know in your heart you believe this is wrong, and i know you can do it.

Pray to God for wisdom, discernment and temperance. Pray pray pray pray, my friend. God, your friends here and myself don't want to be without you in the Kingdom of Heaven.

I can relate to you a lot. I am only 19 years old but being a woman i can relate because it seems that people often think that men are the only ones who struggle with masturbation and pornography. I also can relate because i often have the same problem with my boyfriend as you do with your husband. I will condemn him for his past sins (since he has gone without porn and masturbation for quite some time now) but yet i struggle with it more than he does... However, i challenge you to confront your husband with your struggles and let it all out. Although it's painful and it's hard, it is so rewarding. Getting it out there will probably improve your relationship and he can help keep you accountable. I also agree with Matt that you should seek out a woman from your church to help you. And pray... a lot. Pray that God will release you from your sin and that He will cast Satan away from you and to protect you from Satan's attacks. Whenever you are tempted cry out to God for deliverance and rescue and then make yourself busy... read the Bible or go out for a walk. Good luck... i will be praying for you!

you are not alone, i know how you feel.
i am a single mother with a 2 year old and i'm currently pregnant and about to give birth. i know that porn is a stench to God and vowed recently to refrain from it and masterbation but i know how easy it is for me to give in and how disgusted i feel afterwards. like many i was exposed to it around 7 or 8 and unlike my younger sister who was grossed out i was fascinated. my mother was christian so i've always had alot of guilt about the issue and never had anyone to talk to about it. In the beginning it was very secretive and softcore, limited to pictures and words; after the relationship with my daughter's dad who one night tried to strangle and rape me, i started looking for more hardcore and extreme things to indulge my sickness. i would get bored with things quickly and feel extremely guilty and stop for awhile, then fall back into in when i'm lonely or tired or sad. now i can only wish i'd never laid eyes on some of the things i came across because they don't go away easily. i know how hard it is to find a christian female who struggles with porn and is willing to talk about it. i also know that often times our problems involve more than just porn, it goes alot deeper and alot more complicated than that, at least in my case. i am glad you found this site and had the courage to share with us; i hope you get the help you need - we can't do this alone, we need the Holy Spirit's help.

You are not alone. I am 31, have an almost 5yr old, am a Christian and have been married for 10 yrs. I know exactly what you are going through, because I am going through it too. My hubby and I actually seperated for a while because I caught him on a dating website - so what do I do? I kick him out then continue "dating" myself multiple people. I recently got sexually sober again... but know how easy it is to go back. The allure and temptation is sometimes SO overwhelming that you want to give in just to make the craving go away. Right?

Anyway. Hang in there chica. We will find help together!