The Struggle

I don't remember when I first saw my first dirty magazine, but I know I was young. I remember being drawn to it even though I grew up in church, going 3 times a week. After joining the military, pornography was rampant, easily available, and masturbation was a subject that was easily discussed, openly accepted. Then came the internet, pornography was taken to another lever. I met my wife about this time, and we viewed videos together, to "spice" things up. It became a problem, I would rush home from work to view porn on the computer before my wife came home, trying to hide my activities from her. She would always find me out, know what I was doing up at hours I should have been in bed with her. Now 12 years later, I've finally have the courage to confront these demons head on, to try and overcome this addiction, to save my marriage through the grace of God. I have internet filters on my computer, but the urge is still there. I haven't looked at pornography in 4 months, a small victory in itself, but I know my flesh is still weak and given the opportunity, I would likely fall into old habits. The hardest part is trying to rebuild the trust I lost from my wife and having her believe in me that I can be the man that she fell in love with. Please pray for the continued grace of God in this battle I face daily in overcoming this addiction. I give God the glory for the depths I've come from so far, but I know I have a long way to climb and the mountain will continue to grow.

If you feel trapped by your addiction to porn, there is hope and help available. There is a way to find freedom from pornography as well as masturbation addiction.

RSS Feed Archives