Why can't I stop?

You will stop, trying to stop often makes it worse; because in trying to not think about we think about it. [ the mind takes over and ..]
Walk in that Light with your accountability partner, that is a special bond, so many don't have. you are not beyond saving on this side of heaven.
god never turns away, God loves you' we are one that turns.
lets purposely turn toward Him and do it for Him.

Your story seems to be missing some elements. Are you a Christian or religious? Are you under 18, is porn illegal for you to look at?

How does what you do effect your Mom's work, are you on her company computer somehow?

Assuming for now that you live in your parents home, you can download K9webprotection, have your Mom install it and set it up on your computer, show her that it has a monitoring system, then let her keep the password, and put your profile, if you have one, on a Limited Usage profile, with no ability to install significant new programs upon the computer. (This last step is as critical as having her keep the password)

If you do that this will provide an outer barrier to help keep you away from the material. Next you need to work on the inner person and discern what causes you, besides general sex drive, to want to go back to something that offends or embarasses you. For this, prayer, Bible reading and pastoral or sex counseling may be needed. Learn what is acceptable and what is to be avoided. Take control over your sexual behavior and walk in good conscience before God.

Eventually, you will likely be able to share the password on the K9webprotection with the agreement that your accountability person, Mom?, has the right to look at your records at any time.

God is for you, there is always hope and light ahead.

Hello my name is Maurice and I am 21 and overcoming my masturbation and pornography addiction. I masturbated for the first time when I was 19. I couldn't go one day without doing it, but over time I have decrease the amount of times I do. This time I feel like I have the strength to overcome. You will get out too. I spent many nights looking at porn instead of doing homework or sleeping. It was an endless cycle. I hated asking forgiveness knowing it was probably going to happen again. This is not the easiest thing to overcome. The word says let the weak say I am strong. We are strong in the Lord and we are overcomers. We may slip, but little progress is better than no progress. Over time you will overcome.

We cannot fix ourselves, but God can. Impossibilities for man become possibilities for God. Keep seeking God because you will gain strength as you worship, pray, and read his word. I cut myself from the Lord and it made situations worse. His word says our hearts are wicked, but only he knows the cure. So we have to stick with him. No matter what... he still loves you. His loves looks past our failures. He wants you to get better. DONT GIVE UP ON GOD, BECAUSE HE WONT GIVE UP ON YOU. Dont let your issue keep you from God. The reason why we continue to fail everytime is because we keep God out. I was like this too and cant tell you from experience. Keep God in your mess. Sin only survives in secret. When we keep revealing our sins to God he can heal them. The more we bring it to the light (Jesus or others) we can overcome it. When we keep it secret by hiding it from God and not being honest with ourselves, we leave it in the dark, the devils playground.

His word says that we are only tempted by what we desire, the more you desire God and to be right with him, the less the enemy has to tempt you with.

What has helped me is never put myself in a situation that I can fall into temptation. Lets face it... we still have our urges. So practically I avoid things that turn me on. I also have to keep my mind busy masturbation and porn are battles in the mind. Sometimes my mind will be idle (not thinking about anything) or I will be bored and a lustful thought would come to mind. Instead of stopping the thought I let it bloom and it ended with me masturbating and/or looking at porn. You have to watch what you watch and think. I learned if I keep my mind on things of God I kept from sinning. I have one scripture that I recite when a bad thought comes to mind: Those that belong to Him have crucified their flesh of its desires and lust. I have recited it so much that it has become automatic. Sometimes you may slip, but continue to press for the mark and you will overcome. Changing our thoughts changes our behaviors.

The word also says thay when we are tempted the Lord will make a way out. We need to look for the emergency exit. Whether it be reading the word, going outside or calling someone until the desire passes.

God has taught me a lot in my struggle, which has helped me overcome it. If you would like someone fight with you or need someone to talk to contact me at http://reese88.blogspot.com/