I am So Proud of You

Back into the everyday grind after spending the last two days in New York City while being on the Maury Povich show.  Darcy and I spent the last full day with Craig and Brandon at the studio waiting for our show.  We were front and center behind the scenes for a "who's the Baby's Daddy" show that was filled with emotion, drama, and a whole lot of yelling.  I use to think that stories like these on talk shows were at least a little fabricated or scripted but, Wow was I wrong.
While being in NYC a lot of my time was consumed with thoughts of my past, the recovery, and What could passably come next as I walk farther away from this addiction.
While on the plane coming back home Darcy wrapped her arms around mine looking at me says "I am so proud of you".  I had heard her tell me that a few times over the last two days but, the thing was I was more proud of her than she of me. Yes I have come to accept the fact that when I share my story and trying to help others is something to be proud of but, Darcy is whom I am proud of.
When I told Darcy about my addiction I was scared that once she knew the full story she'd want to run far away but, I had to tell her and come clean.  I mean what would your reaction be when you find out your husband spent more time with porn than with you or seem to choose porn over your sex life.  I hope and pray that if your in her shoes that you react just as she did.  She wasn't happy about and yes she was crushed but, she followed through on her promise that she made before the people in the church and God on our wedding day; For Better Or Worse.  She held my hand when it was tough, prayed for me when temptation showed up, praised God with with me when there was change, and she still supports me everyday.  She even excepted the chance to come onto the show with me and hopefully let people know that it can be done.  What a support she was and is to me
Listen we understand that this issue is very hard and at times can be a thick cloud of deception but, you can do this together.  So if you have an issue with pornography come clean and confess your struggles to someone whether that person is your wife, friend, pastor, or family tell them and get free from this.  If you are a spouse who is dealing with the fact that your significant other has a problem remember that promise you made on your wedding day.
 

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