Letter to myself:

You need to be put to death. Colossians 3:5 says: “Put to death, therefore, anything that belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desire and greed”. Put it to death on the cross. You need to surrender everything to Christ and stop enjoying this sin. It tastes like death and its has serious consequences. Its not worth it. Seek God continually so that he can change you from the inside out. As Psalm 19 says: “Keep your servant from willful sins, may they not rule over me”, may these sexual temptations and desires to lust at every woman/girl not rule over me. Die, sinful self, may you find freedom and purity in Christ Jesus.

Letter from my sex addict:

Trust me I can’t stand it either. Its like I enjoy tormenting and destroying myself. I want to die to this sinful nature, but it feels too good. I enjoy looking at girls and women with a lustful heart but at the same time I’m dying inside. Its honestly the best-worst feeling ever. I want to die, i want to be free from it all. I hope and pray that God might put an end to this soon.