Can Porn Fill Your Heart?
When I first saw pornography for the first time I actually had no idea what I was looking at. I was 13 and had never seen anything like that before. I wasn’t really even sure what sex was a at the time. However, I somehow found myself intrigued. No matter how I felt about it I kept going back to it. I finally started to understand more and more how David felt looking at Bathsheba. But it didn’t take long until I found out I wasn’t the only one. Turns out pornography is multi-billion dollar business every year! In fact, in a single year, pornography makes more money than the NFL, NBA, MLB, and the NHL combined!
We’ve all heard the phrase, “If you’ve seen one, you’ve seen them all.” Comedian Ron White jokes that when you see one woman naked, you want to see the rest of them naked. His play off of that phrase I think is very true in so many ways. God made us to be very sexual beings so when we see nakedness, it tends to drive us crazy and we go after it however we can. I remember finding websites in high school and college that I could go look at porn to anytime, and it was easy. But every time I kept wondering what in the world I was looking at.
What is it that keeps me coming back to this? It turns out that the porn fix was something I was using to fill my heart. Some people use drugs or alcohol to fill the void in their heart. I used pornography as my drug and it led to sexual addiction. I remember just using girls for whatever I wanted and then never seeing them again. Even when I was dating I would abuse the relationships and manipulate them to have sex whenever I wanted. It hurts my heart to say that, but it is the truth. So what about you… How old were you when you got addicted to Porn?