Letter to myself:
This has to stop. I have been involved in this for half of my life. I have claimed to follow Jesus and I believe I have had genuine times of really following him. However, the repentance to sin cycle has to stop. I am running in circles over and over and I am destroying what God has for me. This sin has taken my girlfriend, my career, and at times my family away from me. I am willing to do whatever it takes to put an end to this horrible poison. I will keep my phone away from my bed. I will bounce my eyes at the sight of anything inappropriate. I will resist the urge to check out girls in public. I will commit my thoughts to Jesus when I have the temptation to look at something online. I will wash my mind with the Word and look at women as daughters of the King. I am doing this for the sake of my future marriage, future kids, my career, and ultimately my relationship with Jesus. He is worth it. My eternity is worth it. I will not succumb to the devil’s schemes. I will take responsibility and recognize that I am broken and that I need help. I will live in victory and recognize that pornography and lust are gateways to hell. I cannot accomplish what God has for me when I am double-minded. I have been waivering. I have been unfaithful. I have cheated on my ex-girlfriend with my eyes and thoughts. I have abused the women who I’ve lusted after by treating them as objects. I have failed as a Christian and I need His mercy. I need His love to fill my voids. I need His redeeming power to renew me and bury the old man. I NEED JESUS.
Letter from my sex addict:
You are going all out. No more hiding. No more holding back. You are going to have victory from this moment on. Enough is enough. Your future and any real joy is at stake. You are free in Jesus. This addiction will no longer define your life. You will be defined by His love.