Letter to myself:

Dear Sex addict,

You have told me lies since I was in the 7th grade. Enough is enough. It’s over. I tried to listen to you and believe you. I tried to shut you out. Now I’m putting your elimination beyond anything else. You have affected me for almost 10 years and I don’t want you anymore. Despite all the grace and faithfulness that God has given me, you still manage to have my ear. You cost me my future and caused me to spiral to places I never thought possible.

You are a liar. You are very good at your job.

I regret to inform you that I am putting my wallet, and my heart where my mouth is. I am investing in my future with the Lord and not with you. You are really good at playing on me fears of inadequacy but I know what Romans 8 says. There is therefore now NO condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.

So no matter how much you want to make me doubt the power of the resurrection, or of transformation of the heart, or of peace that surpasses all understanding, I am saying here that I have hope.

You tell me all the time that I am unlovable, but you lie. Here are just a FEW examples of how you are wrong:

I am loved by my Heavenly Father who loved me enough to send my king to die for me. Not only that He chose to and yet still won the battle.

I am loved by my parents, who think I hung the moon.

I am loved by my younger brothers, who in spite of the ways I have hurt them, love me in a way that I cannot even describe in words. More than taking a bullet. More than jumping in front of a train. More than their lives. That is powerful.

I am loved by all of my extended family, who couldn’t be more proud of who I am and what I am doing.

I am loved by my friends, some of whom love me so much that they want me to be intimately involved in their weddings AND their lives after.

Most of all, I love MYSELF. I am fun to be around. People see the way that I am passionate and it spurs them to want to be like that.

So the next time you try and tell me that I am unlovable and that I have to resort to your plans for fulfillment, I will say this: I am loved by so many people, and I trust that any woman that truly sees how much other people love and care for me, and why they do, will love me just the same someday.

So I end this with two little reminders I hope blare in your ears for the rest of your existence:

“For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord” -Romans 8:38-39

Sound familiar? Kendrick said it pretty simply as well

“…But if God got us, then WE GON’ BE ALRIGHT!’

All the worst

Letter from my sex addict:

Dear little boy,

There’s a reason I’m good at my job. I have tenure. You can try all you want, spend all the money you have. Whatever it may be, I am not going anywhere. Ever since that day you first got a glimpse on that computer screen, you’ve been hooked. You’re my favorite pass time! How could I ever let you fall into someone else’s hands? Especially not a woman’s. You’re not good enough for that. You have seen it before. A girl loved you so much, more than you can imagine and I ruined it! I tell you boy, you’re easy. Good luck! you are sure as HELL going to need it.


Your friendly neighborhood snake