Letter to myself:
You have stayed around long enough! I know how you work. I am doing faily well with my life, and I don’t feel tempted. Then you pear your head in. “No one is around. You know the websites. You need the release of sexual tension. God will still love you.”
This has to stop. The momentary feeling of sensation does not beat the guilt, sadness and anger I feel after masturbating to homosexual pornography. You steal my joy. I cannot have that anymore.
Obviously I need my phone for a multitude of things, but I will be limiting my use. I will not be taking my phone or my GIRLFRIEND’S tablet into the bathroom. Also, she knows about my addiction and she is constantly praying for me and there for me. Social media has already diminished to a small amount in my life. My data/wifi wil be turned off every night at 10pm, and I am not allowed to turn it back on until I have prayed and read my bible after waking up.
The most difficult times are when I am alone in my room or when I feel increadibly horny. If I need to leave my room for a little bit, I will. If I have to put my phone up for a day, I will. You can’t win man. I’m claiming victory in the name of Jesus. You were right when you said “God will still love you,” but beause of His love, I am willing to break away from you.
I have an amazing girlfriend named Macy and I am deeply attracted to her. There is no room for you in our relationship.
God still loves you. You are a slave to sin. I am a slave to righteousness. I think it’s time we went our separate ways. In the words of Gretchen Weiners, “You can’t sit with us!”
Letter from my sex addict:
Talk is cheap. I won’t believe it until I see it. You’ve tried these things before, but you still come and visit me. I hope you are seirious this time. Remember what I am capable of. I can be very convincing. I DARE you to try to leave me. We will see who is stronger. It’s not that big of a deal. You have an urge that you’re trying to fulfill.
I have the power to steal, kill, and destroy. Do you really love Macy? Do you really love God? Your future children, IF you have any and IF you marry could end up just like you. You might end up all alone. Does Macy really want to be in a relationship with someone who masturbates to videos of guys?
Your words men nothing until you stand by them. Let’s see what you got.