Letter to myself:

Dear Sex Addict,

Enough is enough. I’ve been dwelling with my sexual sin for seven years. Seven long, excruciating years that I want to put an end to once and for all. I’ve been wanting to quit for the longest time, but it seems you try to catch me when I least expect it. Believe it or not, sometimes it’s actually worked. Other times it hasn’t, which I why I can put you away once and for all. For too long I’ve questioned myself, but it’s time to take a stand. I’m better than you. I’m a child of a gracious, loving God whose given me too many blessings to even consider sinning against him constantly as I have because of you. I’m at a point in my life where I’m at a crossroads, and making the wrong choices will ruin me for the rest of my life. I don’t want to wind up on the path to destruction, but rather to righteousness.

The reason I’m removing my sexual demons from my life, you may ask? I have people, whether it’s family, friends, or… a really special girl to me that I love more than you. More than the websites, and the people you’ve dragged me to. More than the habits that I’ve gotten because you thought it would make everything better. Some of the things you’ve wanted me to indulge in have been purely disgusting and disrespectful of God. Speaking of God, remember him buddy? The guy who’s given me the strength to face off against you? The one who’ll be victorious against you when it’s all said and done, whether you like it or not? Him. I can do all things with Him on my side. One of those things, is conquering you, my sexual addict. At the end of the day, I’ve had enough of being a sexual slave. I’m tired of having to conceal secrets from people I care about. I’m tired of losing to you. So I’ll fight. Fight, scratch, and claw my way to the ultimate victory: To see you burn with the one who dared go against God in hell. All’s fair in love and war, right? So, I’m not holding back anymore. Enough is Enough.

Letter from my sex addict:

Hm… Yo. What’s up?

So all of a sudden, you’re NOW ready to conquer me? Please… remember how you got here to this site to write your little “declaration” in the first place. I just happened to give you a little joyride since you were starting to go limp if you know what I mean. Also, I’ve done this for seven years? Awesome, I find it pretty sweet that you’re gonna pass this along to the next generation, just like your stupid, lusty father who’s never there for you did. Hey, it’s cool and all that you’re religious, and you believe and God and whatnot also. I don’t really care about something or someone that makes you feel bad just because I’m trying to show you the wild side of life, alright? Your crossroads so to speak? Pointless, because it’s gonna take more than a sudden change of attitude, sweetboy. It doesn’t matter what you already have, it’s about what you WANT. You apparently don’t know what you want. Luckily for me I know exactly the medicine for your woes.

And all those reasons why you wanna leave me? Lemme make something clear. You’re the hermit of the family, who doesn’t even wanna go out of his room, so naturally I’ll provide some insight on what you should do. Second, don’t act like you actually have long-term friends, because you’ve mastered the art of isolation and burning bridges thanks to yours truly, ever heard of Me, Myself, and I? Suck it up, you’ll be fine solo.

Lastly… that really special girl you “love”? You must’ve gone delusional. You can’t have her, you know why. The best part is… Even if you put me away like you claim you will, you’ll never have her the way you truly want. Because of that, you’re also incapable of love. Nobody loves you, and you don’t truly love anyone else as a result. I wanted what was best for you, and that was your enjoyment, whether it was the sites, or the hot chicks, or even trying to get in on the fun as well. I don’t care who you side with, because I wanna see you burn when it truly matters anyways.

SO you wanna fight, alright. Let’s fight. Man up little boy, otherwise you ain’t gotta chance.