Letter to myself:

Dear Matt,
Who are you? Seriously, I’m not sure if I know who you are. I know who you were, and who you should be, but I don’t think I know who you are. You were a great person, before the summer after 8th grade. Then you were drowning, sinking, being consumed. Now it’s trying to stay, but you’re not being strict enough to send it out. It’s killing you on the inside, and you’re allowing it to happen. Paul tell the church in Corinth that the sexual immoral have no place in the Kingdom of God, that means you don’t have a place either. But you CAN have a place there. Grab the hand Jesus is reaching out, He HAS VICTORY. In fact, He’s already won! I may not know who you are, but I know who you can be. Seek God’s forgiveness, let it soak into every pore, every bone, and every space in your body. Give your burden to Jesus, and lay pornography at the cross. Leave your sinful past behind, and start walking hand-in-hand with Jesus. Stay close to Him, and He will make you into a new creation. You can’t do it by yourself, you need Jesus, and Ethan.’s continued accountability. I can’t make you do this, but I want you to do it. For yourself, your family, your future family, your friends. Remember II Timothy 2: 20-21. God can use you in great ways, wherever you’re called. I may not know who you are now, but I want to know the future you. And that starts by saying no to the devil, and following Jesus, PORN FREE.
In Christ, -Matt S.

Letter from my sex addict:

Dear Matt,
If you’ve had thoughts about looking at nude women,DO IT. You don’t need to be the top of your class, you don’t need true friends, you don’t even need to listen to God. Come with me, we’ll have a great time with Katie, no one knows, and no one has to know. I’m really confused why you think you can stop. I see you trying hard not to, but you always come right back to me. Why? Just stop looking back, and just stay by me. Once we’re together, you can never look away, or break away. I control your thoughts and actions. Just accept it, and together, we’ll get through any hoop we want, all for the sake of pornography. Don’t listen to what others tell you. The women like it, and they especially like it when you look at their photos. Everybody wins, except Jesus. So get over it, and start looking for another babe.
-Porn Addict (aka Winner)