Letter to myself:

Dear Sex Addict,

Enough is enough!!!!

I am tired of you being influential within my life. I am tired of allowing you to control and define who I am as a person. When being exposed in grade seven, I had no clue that decades later I would still be struggling. I have allowed you to become victorious over me. I have allowed myself to believe that one look can’t hurt. Or that, I can stop myself whenever I want to, Sadly these were only words. When I felt myself slipping and failing, I fought hard. I wanted to tell someone my struggles, and have someone keep me accountable, but I couldn’t commit. This is when I would find myself back in the same old rut. Well sex addict I am hear to tell you TODAY that I am done with you. ENOUGH is ENOUGH!!!! I may struggle at times, but I am a conqueror and a fighter. I refuse to allow you to have control over my life. I REFUSE to allow you to determine who I am as a person. I will be free. And this time it IS real, because dear sex addict, I am making more strides towards success than I have ever done in my entire life. I am being vulnerable, open and honest. I am going to be spending more time with God, cause He is my best friend, NOT you, Sex Addict. I realize in order to be free from you I am going to have to work hard for it, but I am determined to remain big picture focused. I can only take one day at a time. Although it is a massive struggle for me, I will be taking the time to dig deeper into the root of the problem, no matter how painful it is. I am going to be honest with myself and with others. I am going to display humility, and reach out to others and ask for help. I know that I am going to feel the temptation ten times stronger, but with God and my army of supporters, you will no longer have control over me!

Letter from my sex addict:

Dear wishful thinker,

You really think that you can escape me that easily. I have heard you speak these words before, they are nothing new to me. You say you are strong, but I know who you really are. You are a weak coward. You are all talk and no action. You can’t live without me, because without me, who are you?! I have been in your life for far to long for you to actually get rid of me. The truth is that you need me in your life. To you, I am more important than anything else in your life.