Letter to myself:

im tired of the second life you are living. I want to honest with the loved ones in my life. I say I want to be stronger and I pray for the strength but it never seems to work. I’m done playing the defensive game and am going to attack the problem head on. I’m done saying that I am going to do it on my own. I need help. I need to rely on the Holy Spirit and not my own strength because I will fail. This is a team effort and together we can overcome the struggle. I want more for my life and my marriage. I want to glorify God with every part of my life.

Letter from my sex addict:

I can’t and don’t know how bad I really want it. It’s hard and I like the power I feel I have. I know it is only temporary but it feels right. I don’t want to be honest and show people my weak side. I have trouble seeing the benefits of even stoping. Is it worth it?