Letter to myself:

For years now, you have kept me down in this secret, dark place that I feared I never could leave. I’ve been trying to figure out for a while now why I do the things I do and why I couldn’t change. I’ve tried so many times now I’ve lost count, I’m so blessed and gifted, but yet I still feel as if I’m wasting these gifts from God… Now, I’ve finally figured out why I couldn’t change. I was trying to hold on for as long as could but even though I’m strong athletically and mentally, I still will fall sooner or later. What I really need to do to change is dig deep down in my soul and find the true reason I’m attracted to Pornography. When I think about it, I’ve always said I wanted to wait to till I was married to have sex because God said to but to be honest, that wasn’t the main reason. The main reason was really because I was afraid you would make me addicted to sex because I’m already addicted to Pornography. So many years I’ve been living in this stress and agony because of pornography… Well, now that is going to change, I am not going to sit by anymore and let you destroy my life and my relationship with God! No more! I can’t stand you anymore, I am a new creation in Jesus Christ! Most of all, I AM FREE!!!!

Letter from my sex addict:

Hahaha, you think you can escape me, well you can’t! You think your so called God can keep you from me, your funny. You think you can break free from the chains, well you can’t, you won’t. You will never be FREE!