Letter to myself:
Dear sex addict,
It has been long, too long. That’s all I can say about that. It hasn’t been good, helpful, or fulfilling. Sure, at times it was “fun,” but even that never ever lasted. In the end all it has been is long and miserable, and I am tired of it. I am done, this is over.
I think the saddest part is just how confused you’ve kept me for so long. Like for the longest time I didn’t even acknowledge you. I didn’t know how to. Then, once I finally admitted you were there, I tried to protect you still, soften it, and make people believe you weren’t even that bad. IT was a while till I could finally admit what you are: a helpless, worthless, addict.
And now I am done with you. You can’t stay in my life, you ARE NOT WELCOMED!
I am getting help to get rid of you too. I am doing this 30 day challenge from xxxchurch, and I am starting their curriculum soon I have some great friends, and I am getting real with them. They know about you now, and if you come back, they are going to know about it. And if that were to happen, you’ll just have to leave again, so don’t even bother trying.
And all those things that you used to feed your addiction- yeah those are gone too. You don’t get to use my phone or my computer ever again.
You know, honestly, you where or brought out some of my most creative thoughts and imaginations. So thank you for showing me that I can do that, cause now I am going to use it to first get rid of you, and then to do thing to glorify God and expand his kingdom.
Oh yeah, since I just brought him up, let me tell you about my God. HE REALLY REALLY LOVES ME, while completely and absolutely hating you. He has known about you this whole time, and he wants you gone, and he is helping me. He is on my side, and he has told me that nothing can stop me when he has my back. Because the other truth is that I love him, and I want to honor and glorify him with my life. I also love life, and no one ever lives a life worth telling with you as their companion.
Ha! Man oh man I am so happy you are leaving. You are not a part of me anymore and you will not be ever again.
“So you are no longer a slave, but a son, and if a son, than an heir through God” — Galatians 3:23
Letter from my sex addict:
Got your letter…
I mean it was cute and all, but let’s be honest, I am not going anywhere. I am too good at what I do, and you can’t beat me. I can literally show up anywhere, and you know that. And I can get you to do what I want. No matter how “good” you get or “healthy” or “strong” or even how many cute little friends you get around you, it won’t help. I’ll be just around the corner, waiting. And when I do come back, it’ll be worse and stronger than ever.
Besides, I know you don’t actually want me to leave. Who’s going to be with you when you are lonely and sad if not me? Who’s going to give you something to do when you are bored? You got some other solution on what to do with those urges if it’s not to come to me? Like you are ever going to stop wanting sex, stop enjoying woman, stop being attracted to them. Ha. Good luck, but that is not happening, no way.
Plus, I am not close to being finished. Oh no, I have way more fun to have. And by fun I mean I enjoy it while I ruin your life. I’ve ruined your relationship with Hannah, but that was just the start. I have more relationships to ruin until you are all alone, just longing for some to love you. But no one will. No one… except me. I will always be there for you buddy, because you’ll have nowhere else to go. Ha. So we can let this little 30 day challenge deal happen, but I’ll be back. After all we are like one you and me.
Be Back Soon,