Letter to myself:

Hey you, it’s been what, 5 years now? You’ve been doing the same thing and then crying to God that it is going to be the last time. The truth is, you’ve not been serious about breaking free. You are handling this problem with levity. I know you want to be free but you will start being serious about it. Ope has to know that you’re still struggling. I know that this is one of the reasons why you’re not in a relationship because you don’t want to be in one and still be hooked on porn. God knows you want to break free so badly and He’s going to help you, but you have to help yourself too. You are a champion and a conqueror.

Letter from my sex addict:

Hey Jojo, you say you’re gonna change but you come back running into my open arms. You repeat this same cycle over and over and over… I hope you’re serious this time around. I won’t try to entice you, I’ll just be here minding my business but if you change your mind, I’ll be right here where I always am.