Dear sex addict self,
I am no longer going to let you control my life. You have taken over my thoughts and behaviors for far too long, and it is stopping NOW. Don’t you feel bad at ALL that you are ruining my future joy? No? Didn’t think so. This is a break up letter. It’s not an “oh, lets just be friends” kind of deal. This is the kind of end to a relationship that’s like “I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE”. You have deprived me of my innocents, and that is something that I’ll never get back. But you know what, I forgive you. You know why? Because I feel bad that you don’t know the love that Jesus has for you. You are finding your self worth in something that will NEVER bring you joy and pleasure. I forgive you because through everything, you brought my best friend and I closer. Despite your constantly telling me that I’ll “never be loved”, I feel more loved now than ever before. I love the feeling of control I have over you right now. I’m guessing this letter is going to make you mad though, so I am preparing for being tempted in the worst way possible. These are some of the ways I’m going to stop you from ruling over my life.
1. Treat my body right. My body is a temple to the Lord and I do not want you living in it.
a. Train for a half marathon. I feel by putting all my physical and mental energy in training, I won’t want to or feel a desire to let you back in.
2. Talk
a. I found that so many more people struggle with this sin than just me, and if we talk about our struggles together, we can make this happen.
b. To God. Prayer is something I’ve been neglecting to do for a while. I’m not completely blaming you, but I think you had a lot to do with this. I am going to avidly work on falling in love with Jesus all over again. He has proven time and time again that he is all I need.
There will be more. I don’t like you. I don’t need you. You are a complete waste of time and energy. Instead of spending time on you, I’m going to invest in the people around me. Community is the best thing in the world.
No longer yours,