Letter to myself:

You have been watching porn and lusting after women for well over 4 years and it’s gotten out of hand. Why do you do this to yourself? It is only killing you more and more each time you watch this and lust. Porn is a landslide and you’re right in the middle of it. Call on Christ your heavenly father and Lord. He is the only one who can save you. We don’t know how or why God could possibly forgive us of our sins but just remember that you are never too far gone for the Lord to find you. He loves you because he created you just the way that you are. Remember that your God made you perfectly and that he doesn’t make mistakes. Remember always that he sees you in your struggles and that he knows what it is like to be tempted. Be in his word as you fight this disease and always be in prayer as you struggle to remain pure. You CAN do this.

Letter from my sex addict:

I will try my very best to beat this addiction. I know that God is a forgiving God but it is sometimes hard to remember his unending and abundant grace towards me each time that I sin. God loves me I know but it’s hard for me to grasp the true and endless extent of his love. Despite trying to beat this addiction, I know that I am not going to be perfect. I know there will be moments when I stumble. I just need to press on from them and remember his grace every day. I must beat this.