Letter to myself:
I know what you are thinking..just one more time. I know what you are wanting..just one more look. But I know what you are actually doing..just one more kill. You don’ t see it obviously. This. Is. Killing. You. This. Is. Hurting. You. This. Is. Hurting. God. The funny thing is, is that while you act tough I can see you crying out for help inside. I can hear that desperate plea for help. From friends? Family? God? If you only would open up. I genuinely care about you…about us. I know that you are ashamed. I have been there as you cry out in prayer to God and beg for healing and help. I know what it is like. I know you do too.
Is this the life you want? You have an amazing wife, great job, good family. And you are putting it all on the line for what exactly? A little pleasure? A little ‘alone-time’? Satan has lied to you. This is not the way and certainly is not worth losing everything else. I know that if you felt like you could actually stop you would. But you feel helpless don’t you? You feel powerless, right? That is satan’s biggest lie.
You are not helpless.
You are not hopeless.
You are not weak.
You are a chosen, redeemed, child of the King! And His power is enough to crush your addiction, pain, loneliness, temptations, and desires!
Look to Him! Trust in Him! Instead of running to your iPhone – run to Him! Run to the Creator who is waiting for you. And tell your addiction to go to hell where it belongs. You are indwelt by the Holy Spirit and He is strong enough to see you through. God has already said He has provided the way out.
Rest my friend. Stop trying to fix yourself and start letting the Holy Spirit fix it for you.
Letter from my sex addict:
I’m not that bad. I can’t believe you are comparing me to a murderer? I don’t kill anyone…I just make you feel a little better. I know your job is hard and life sucks sometimes. I am just trying to you know ‘help a brother out’. I don’t know why you hate me so much. I am not that bad. Everybody has their issues. At least yours only affects you. It is not like it costs you money or anything. Just google something risqué and VIOLA! It doesn’t take much time…I just need a few minutes and then I will be done. I know it hurts God but He knows you are not perfect and loves you in spite of that right? Your wife would never leave you…even if you told her. You know that. So what are you waiting for? I guess I just don’t understand what the big deal is?…