I want to be free. In Christ I am free. I am sick and tired of dealing with this crap. Praying again and again to be delivered. It is destroying my soul. It is breaking my heart. It is wrecking my marriage and harming the relationship with my wife. I am so afraid. Afraid that I will never be free, afraid of what people think, filled with shame. I want to be free. I want to be clean. I want to be honourable. I feel like a hypocrite. I will be free of you. I will be free of your dark and fake thrills. You are a waste of time. I will get help, I will beat you, because Christ has already crushed you. You are defeated, and it is time to walk in that victory rather than returning to the darkness again and again. You are finished.