Letter to myself:
Dear Sex Addict Self,
I would like to start off by saying that it is okay to admit you are broken. It is okay to admit you aren’t perfect. It is okay!
This started as a habit in the 8th grade and has transformed into a large part of your life in the last 7 or 8 years. It has just become more of a way to start your day…or end your day…or just get through your day. I am so proud of you for admitting this to yourself.
It is time to stop feeling so ashamed of yourself. It is time to find joy and peace in your life. Every problem you have with your personality can almost always be traced back to the effects of your porn use. AND THATS OKAY! You are working towards being a new person and God is showing you so much about the real pleasures in Him.
You will struggle…you will fight…you may even lose sometimes but God will always be there to show you the real pleasure. Stop feeling like you are not good enough… Stop feeling like you can’t stop your porn use, because you can!
You are afraid to give it up and that’s okay. But it is a problem that needs to be faced. You have a hard time with people accepting or rejecting you. You hide your porn use from the ones you love and then do not trust them because you are keeping secrets. They are doing nothing wrong, and it is you who is causing the problems in yourself.
Addicted self God loves you. You are God’s. He is proud of you for just writing this letter. This is the biggest step you have ever taken in your life to be free. We will continue to take these steps together and we will be serious about it.
It’s time for us to stop the suffering of being ashamed and keeping secrets. I can’t wait for the day that I can write the letter to my NON-addicted self!
Letter from my sex addict:
Don’t ever forget how it feels to be me, non addicted self. Be free but remember the pain in your heart. Let it be a reminder of how horrible I am. I will destroy you. I will break your relationships and I will take you away from God. He is taking me away from you and I know you are scared. I know you don’t want to give me up. It feels too good when you are hurting. But I promise I will destroy you.
Remember how good it feels when you choose God and experience His joy. Remember how it feels when you think about your girlfriend and choose not to use porn because you know she trusts you.
Many people look up to you and many people love you. You are not only hurting yourself but you are hurting others. I am always here to help you hurt others, but I know our opinions on life are conflicting.
It is time for us to part ways…you don’t need me anymore.