Letter to myself:
You’ve been fighting this battle for a while now. It seems as though for every step forward, you take two steps back. I know that the real issue is with fear. Fear that you’re not good enough for the purpose God has for your life. But you don’t have to be good enough. You simply have to be willing, God will give you the strength if you give him the effort.
This doesn’t mean it will be easy–far from it. What it means is that it will be worth it in the end. No matter what you have to give up. You can no longer hide in the darkness hoping that no one will take notice. The longer you sit there, the harder it becomes and the less you fade in to the blackness. If you step into the light no only will you be helping yourself, but hopefully you can give others the courage to do the same. And you will realize very suddenly that you’re not the only one with this issue.
So how do you step into the light? You need to confess to somebody, open up to them and let them help you. You need to create accountability. The confession isn’t a one time thing, because there will be temptation and stumbles all along the way. So you need to find someone who will be hard on you but also understanding and supportive. You need to believe that this can happen, it may seem like a losing fight at times but it’s not. And finally you need to realize this is an every day, every moment, every thought type of thing. You need to constantly be on guard because any crack can lead to slipping up, especially at the beginning. Guard your mind, and get ready to be freed.
Letter from my sex addict:
I don’t see how I can get out of this. It’s overwhelming, and it has become a necessity in my life. I’m willing to try, and I want to be free, but there are moments when I don’t. And that is when I slip up. I’m not sure where to go from here.