You are not weak. You are in fact strong. You do NOT NEED PORN. Really. I think you use it when your are stressed out, and the world around you is collapsing. And I know you know that there are much better options out there. More fulfilling ones. You’ve heard all the answers, rehearsed all the lines. Now what you need to do is be disciplined.
Even if your inspiration runs out, that’s OK. You’ve got a bigger man watching over you and pushing you to do your greatest. You can do this.