Letter to myself:

Look my friend, Carson. You have struggled for way too long with this. You have sat alone wishing for far too long. Look, you are not alone. You are surrounded with amazing people Hod has put in your life whom are willing to help you. But they can’t unless you reach your hand out.

So look, I want you to know something. That you don’t need to be afraid. You won’t be rejected. You won’t lose the Spirits calling. But instead you will be embraced all the more and God will really begin to show you the next amazing step of your calling.

Take the first step. Focus on a day. Focus on your relationship with your wife. Pursue her and pursue your Lord. Christ will strengthen you and her presence will encourage you.

Don’t give up. Focus on one day. And realize that you can break free. You can find freedom. You can find peace and you can experience and healthy and amazing sex life with your wife.

Believe in the one whom has called you to something bigger! Something amazing. Believe in the one whom died to set you free from this addiction. Believe in the One so that you can believe in your self, found in Him.

Your not alone
You can do it
Focus on today
Purse your wife
And believe in the One.

I believe in you Carson.

Letter from my sex addict:

Thank you for the letter and the encouragement.

I’ll admit it though. I am scared. I am scared I won’t be able to break free. I am scared that I’ll be trapped here forever. I am afraid that I won’t be able to heal. And this really really really eats at me.

I know my friends would be there for me but I am still scared I won’t be able to be there for myself. I don’t believe in myself. I’m scared of this. And
I am scared of the calling I have recieved. I am supposed to walk worthy of the calling I have received. But I haven’t. And I am afraid that that will be taken from me and that the Spirits presence will be withdrawn from me. I don’t want to lose this.

I’m just scared I’ll fail again.

Help me. Because I’ll need every ounce I can get in order to make it just this one day. Strengthen me Lord. Watch over me please.