Letter to myself:
I don’t know how you got in this place but it doesn’t matter at this point. What matters is the here and now.
You love women and I get it. I do too, but what you’re doing isn’t healthy. You have a wonderful woman in your life that you will marry one day. You don’t want your porn & masturbation issues to affect your future marriage. Heck, you can kinda tell it’s affecting your relationship right now. You know what you’re doing is wrong and I don’t need to remind you of that. You know better and I need you to DO better. Not for me, not for E or your family but for God. He doesn’t want this for you and I know you don’t want this for yourself either.
You’re a good man, one whose made mistakes but we all have. Look at David. He was called a man after God’s own heart but had a man killed so that he could take his wife. We all make mistakes and we all fall down but we need to pick ourselves back up. Trust in God man. He won’t put more on you than you can bear. He’ll be with you every single step of the way, believe me.
I know that you’ll be able to overcome this and share your story with other young men that struggle with these issues.
You got this!
Letter from my sex addict:
Thanks for the kind words. I do appreciate what you said.
You’re right, I do know better. I just get fed up with my current situation at times and rely on porn to provide an escape. Half the time that I actually do it, I’m not even satisfied in the end. It’s become such a routine thing now. I hate myself for it but God still loves me and isn’t through with me yet. I just gotta get through today. One day at a time. I want God to be proud of me and I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and be proud of the man that I see.
Again, thanks for the kind words homie. And don’t you worry, I’ll be victorious in the end.