Letter to myself:

To my “other” half, you are an abomination. You are the other side of the coin; the dark side of the moon. Your filth is a perversion. You think watching videos of women you’ll never meet, fantasies that will never come true, acts that will never happen is good for you? You’re clueless if you think otherwise. What can these videos, images, sex lines give you that is more than the Lord Jesus Christ has given you? You have been given a wife, a helper in your life to share with, to be intimate with. She will give you a longer lasting love than the quick fix you desire. What your sinful heart desires is a lie. The boobs – fake. The orgasms – fake. The acting/image of want – fake. They’re all lies. Those women don’t want you. They don’t want to make you truly happy. The Trinity wants you happy. With Their strength, I will crush you “Lustful self”. I will drag the god you call List into the street and kill it. Your addiction may be strong, but not as strong as my God, the King of Kings, Jesus Christ. So say goodbye, because this is the last day on Earth for you.

Letter from my sex addict:

You’re kidding right? You think your God will help you? Where is He? If He is so powerful, why doesn’t He stop me? You don’t know what it’s like to be rejected over and over again by women over the course of 20 years. You don’t know what it’s like to be turned away by your wife countless times because it wasn’t the right time. To be rejected for a myriad of petty differences. Those women give me exactly what I want with no judgment. The say exactly what I want to hear and never complain to me. There’s no stress. No complications. It’s a one night stand without consequence. I’m not hurting myself or anyone else. I’m not cheating either. Lots of other people do it and its normal. So what’s the big deal? If God has such a big problem with it, why doesn’t he just say something?