Letter to myself:
Dear Porn Addict-
Looking at porn may feel good and seem like a minor issue on the surface. But beneath the surface it is a deeper, stronger issue. How far back can you remember looking at porn or thinking about it.?
I mean I understand the pleasure and excitement it brings to see someone who is attractive and pleasing to eye undress right in front of you. But really how long does that pleasure and excitement last? For one thing, one step leads to the next and more and more is wanted to satisfy that pleasure..
Are you married? Jesus says that just thinking/looking at another women with lust in the eye is pretty the same thing as cheating on your wife. Do you think about what you are actually thinking about when you are watching porn? Living in this life is tough. The world is full of sin, selfishness and pleasure seeking people. What kind of way is it to live a life with out meaning, to love and to be loved.
Have you thought about telling someone about your porn watching? Having someone who knows what struggles you are going through will help you be more accountable. Is there anyone you know that you can trust? I mean can you trust yourself if you are by yourself for a certain amount of time?
Do you know what trust is?
I leave you with this; being addicted is a very strong force if you will, and it is near impossible to beat it by yourself. I suggest to really think about it and ask yourself if you want to be free from this addiction. If you do, tell someone, tell God, ask for HIs help; for I believe the Heavenly Father is the only one who can satisfy and fill that spot in your heart where the porn is filling.
Don’t lose heart if the struggle becomes to much and you fall back a few times. Coming out the other side of this struggle will make you stronger and even happier. Just run back to your Abba Father and ask Him to help you and to protect you. He loves you and is always there waiting for you.
Letter from my sex addict:
First off, let me say that, I hate my sin. I hate the fact that even though I love my creator and love my wife I can’t seem to resist the satisfaction of porn. It just feels good. Why does it have to be so hard.
I feel like I trust God and want to have a good relationship with him, but there are times that I just ignore Him because I see a good looking girl or a movie comes on, and then all that goes out the window.
Why does it have to have such an effect on me? Like I said before, I hate sin and the fact that it is always trying to separate me from God and anything that is pure. And porn is not pure, but in the heat of that moment, I just don’t care. I think I would rather care more for what is pure.
I would appreciate some prayer. God is good, and I want Him to be able trust me and be proud of me.